Devotion: Even Now Moments

May 13, 2020

When Jesus arrived he found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb for four days... When Martha had heard that Jesus was coming, she went and met him, while Mary stayed at home.  Martha said to Jesus, “Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But even now I know that God will give you whatever you ask of him.” (John 11:17, 20-22)

“Even now”.  Do we have the kind of faith that says, “even now”?  This is the kind of faith that people have despite the circumstances.  It is the kind of faith people have when they fully face the reality of a situation but refuse to let the circumstances define God’s action.

Here is the example of an “even now” faith, in the words of a poem written by a Jewish person on the wall of a cellar in a concentration camp during World War II:

“I believe in the sun
even when it is not shining
And I believe in love,
even when there’s no one there.
And I believe in God,
even when he is silent.

I believe through any trial,
there is always a way
But sometimes in this suffering
and hopeless despair
My heart cries for shelter,
to know someone’s there
But a voice rises within me, saying hold on
my child, I’ll give you strength,
I’ll give you hope. Just stay a little while.”

“Even now” in the direst, most hopeless circumstance, daily faced with the horrific cruelty of the Nazis, this person refused to let go of his/her belief in love and the presence of God.  And so it was with Martha. She didn’t know what Jesus could do now that her brother was dead but she refused to let go of her belief in that he was the living presence of God who could somehow bring life out of death.

We are faced with many times to say “even now” in our faith.  Perhaps it is with the death of a loved one, when we feel broken by grief, but can say, “Even now I know that You are with me God.”  Perhaps it is in the midst of a day when we are bored and lonely. “Even now, I know that You give my life purpose and meaning.” Perhaps it is when we lose hope in seeing something being resolved. “Even now I trust in Your healing mercy.” To live in faith means saying “even now”.  “Even now, when Your kingdom seems so far away, I will strive to show Your love to the world, my community, my family, my friends.”

Prayer: O God whose promises have been, are and will be fulfilled, help us in our daily lives to live an “even now” faith, trusting that even in death there is resurrection and in spite what we face You are present. Amen.